Pure, pure rendition..

Imagine there's no heaven
It's easy if you try
No hell below us
Above us only sky
Imagine all the people
Living for today...

Imagine there's no countries
It isn't hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
And no religion too

Imagine all the people
Living life in peace...You may say I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will be as one

Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man

Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world...
You may say I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will live as one

Love is saying 'I feel differently', instead of 'You're wrong'.

can't talk

Eunice!!!!!!

After 4 hours of ktv, I officially no voice now!

Scary. How ?....

focused

Woke up bright and early today.

Never remembered being this focused in my life. Feels odd.

Some shitty events continue to unfold but oddly I find this silent strength within me.
And dearie eunice thanks so much for listening and caring and planning and your sms this morning..(Went great!)

Writing feeds my soul, I think. A blog is such a good idea.

Seeing things from a dog's eye view..

Like owner like dog?Like mummy like caspar?

Caspar is usually inactive, sleeps thru out the day,eats too much, shits like there's no tomorrow but I love him all the same. :)

"Forgetting someone you love is like remembering someone you have never met." Sigh.

today.

As I'm typing this its pouring buckets outside. And dare I say there hasn't been a day I'm here that it failed to rain.

I would probably get more sun in Singapore. Not that I'm complaining much.

Aunt Ben cooked such a sumptuous & delicious dinner, we sat round the dining table, talked about the mischievious acts of my lil cousin and it felt like family.
It had been like this most days and I know I'm gonna miss it.

Gotta be up by 5 tomorrow. Am going to smooch rachel silly before I hit the sack.


If I had been sleeping all this while, its time to wake up and chase those dreams..

Officially Broken.....

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Feeling the bluest of blue.

If you can't count on your family, who can you count on?

Will someone just have my back for a sec?

Tired. Tired. Tired.

random thoughts

The sun is up today! And I'm here alone in the house!

Uncle Ivan has gone to work obviously, the kids are at school, and Aunt Ben just came in a moment ago to say she would be visiting her friends (to see some land?!) and would I like to go?

Well, I said thanks but no and she said she would be back at 3 pm and Uncle Ivan at 4 cos we would be celebrating my elder cousin's birthday later tonight with a good dinner. Yum. Can't wait. And its the weekend tomorrow! I pray for no rain, cos Ing wants to go to the zoo!

Nice Aunt Ben just dropped a few DVDs on the bed & told me where to get food downstairs and that she will be locking the door and to ring her if I needed something. Sweet. :) Even Uncle Ivan has changed somewhat. My memories of him was that he was defintely playful & mumbles all the time so i couldn't make out what he was saying 80 percent of the time.

He still mumbles now but he was being really sweet & responsible for the time I've been here. He would call each day at work (a few times!) to ask where I would be going, call again to check I've reached the destination and call to ask if I had my meals and what time I would be back and if I was okay making my way back on my own.
It was strange (but nice) having someone check on me all the time & then it crossed my mind that he would make a responsible, protective Dad.

I'm glad. In fact, I'm super glad that he's doing so well now and has a capable wife and 2 adorable kids, after seeing what he had been thru. I heard stories from my aunt about how it was like when they first got here; how she had to navigate the roads with him cos he would be unfamiliar driving on his own. I bet picking up Thai and adjusting to the work culture here wasn't easy either.

But what doesn't kills you makes you stronger! And stronger is always better for this constantly evolving and complicated world we live in.

Here, people are so much simpler & less uptight about things, generally. Children here literally play & they have a wonderful childhood.

At 2, my cousin is allowed to have ice cream, chocolate whatever, even at dinner time.
My heart skips a beat when I see her climb the steep steps, or clamber up the high chair, or use the laundry thingy as a monkey bar. And after classes ended, its all playtime. We have fun with Barbies, make-believe & play dohs.

The average Singaporean parent would probably be telling her child that candies are bad for you, and no soft drinks or snacks and scream at the top of their lungs should their children so much as sprint in the mall. Holding their hand & watching their every move. Tuition after tuition & have you learnt your spelling?

Sigh.

It's tough to be a kid these days. It's admirable to want the best for your child and to mould them the way you think is best for them..

But.. have you forgotten what it was like being a child?

How you secretly wonder what it was like playing in the rain?
How having an ice cream cone makes your day?

I don't even know why I'm writing this and I'm not trying to appear wise especially since I'm not a parent. Just an observation and my personal thoughts. :)

I think in this world we live in, we constantly worry about what might have been and tend to over anticipate & complicate things. But worry is like a rocking chair, it gives you something to do but gets you nowhere.

I mean, what if you spilled milk on the couch? Just send it for cleaning and it will be as good as new. So what if you fell and skinned your knee? If it hurts, let the tears fall, time would heal and you will be good as new.

Totally irrelevant below.

Gotta try out the kiwi salt scrub I got yesterday.. Grossly cheap & smells heavenly. Scrubs help give your skin a nice healthy sheen.. so girls, exfoliate exfoliate..Its supposedly smoothing & packed with Vitamin C. Yay.

And I'm gonna watch 200 pounds beauty on DVD again!

Later.

How would you like to go up in a swing, up in the sky so blue?

More Updates..

Be warned: Long Post Ahead.

Here I am, sitting comfortably typing away with Maroon 5 in the background.

Earlier, I was scared out of my wits, actually. I went to the mall (Fashion Island) around 12ish..to have my lunch, shop for some stuffs, and later caught "What Happens In Vegas" (hilarious, witty, feel-good movie;go watch it!!) Anyway, I got into a taxi, fished out the note which my aunt wrote in Thai (address) and passed it to the taxi driver.

Anyhow, it was dark when I left the mall and about 20 minutes later, he wasn't sure he had got the place right. There were no streetlamps except for the meagre light the roadside stalls provided. Many sharp & abrupt turns later, he stopped the cab. It was so dark but I thought I got the right house (white fence) and quickly got off.

I squinted hard and realised I was in the neighbourhood.. its just that I have got the wrong house. That wasn't quite so bad, right? I mean, at least I was in the neightbourhood.. I jus had to get the unit right. WRONG. Well, this BIG dog started coming at me menacingly, but slowly(thank god) & growled. That was certainly not a friendly gesture. I retreated slowly.. and I realised the subdued and serene dogs that roamed freely in the day minding their own business have transformed to growling & howling beasts when night falls.

In the dark, It seemed like I was in a bad dream and I swear I could feel my heart thumping so hard it hurts. I didn't know what else to do but thank god for this lady out for a smoke. I stood beside her hoping she could sense i needed some help for I was speechless. She shoo-ed them away while saying something in thai. Next thing i knew, my aunt appeared, armed with a tennis racquet no less. I was so so relieved. She then proceeded to tell me that these dogs are hostile at night and that they were unfamiliar with me..
I have dogs of my own.. and like wolves, they hunt and move in packs.

I could have been mauled. GULP.

I wonder why they are such monsters at night. Isit cos they were hungry?..I had thought of getting some kibbles for them days before but decided against it.. What if they started a food fight? Like the big ones attack the small ones when theirs run out? Shudders. Its a dog eat dog world out there afterall.

Digressing, one interesting incident while at the movies.

You know how you have commercials & previews before the movie starts? I was sipping my Pepsi & then there was this couple on my right who suddenly stood up. And then it all makes sense when the images of the Thai King came on, complete with a regal sounding music, believed to be the Thai national anthem. I quickly turned around and saw that people at the back were doing the same.

They say, when in Rome, do as the Romans do. Logically, I should have done the same. But no, my butt sat glued to the seat and I silently wished that i could be invisible for that moment.
I totally understand and have great respect for their King, but my knowledge of him is that he is greatly respected, religious and that he loves dogs?

I am always intrigued by individuals who are greatly respected by others.
For respect has to be earned.
Did he automaticaly command the respect of his people simply by being King?
Or did he do something phenomenal to improve the lives of those in need?

This, I'm gonna ask my aunt tomorrow.

Digressing further... for those heading to BKK for a holiday anytime soon, beware of taxi drivers!!! (Kelly, take note!) Yesterday, I had one who took me on a long long tour, it was like a 2 hr ride when it could have been 45!

They would nod their head & say they know where they are going & yet end up at god-knows where! I had to keep calling my aunt & make him speak to her.

Ladies, if you are traveling alone in cities like these, you could bring:

1) Red Lippie ( to scrawl SOS or HELP on the windows if need be..)
2) Perfume with spray (obviously at the eyes or something so pungent it could make him gag)
3) Torchlight with alarm (Evelyn gave this to me; u pull the string & when it detaches makes a very loud sound & its continuous.. I don't know where to get this though)
4) Elbows when directed give strong blows

And DO NOT walk so near the pavement where the vehicles are whizzing by.. you run the risk of having your bag snatched OR bundled up in vans where syndicates operate on making the victims beg, & without an arm or leg too. This is told to me by my aunt. My little cousin of 8 yrs knows never to buy food at roadside stalls near her school, no matter how hungry.. cos the villians who run these syndicates target young children too, girls especially.

I hope these idiots burn in hell.

So.. Life is precious people! Travel if you must but travel smart!

Excuse me but I need to make myself camomile tea to calm my frazzled nerves now. 5 more days before I leave rainy Bangkok for sunny Singapore.

See ya. :)

No pictures!

Due to some technical difficulties & slow internet connection, no pictures can be loaded!

Pity.

Anyhow, I went to this mall called "The Mall", & came back with some decent purchases.. Will be heading to chatuchak in a few days & be seeing the same stuffs, so I guess I will be saving the best for last!

Anyway, they have Morgan & Playboy lingerie, I didn't know! I want them all!
They are of such good quality plus they come in such feminine yet racy designs. Think baby pink with white lace trimmings or racy red and black combi. Makes me wonder why Singapore has none of those. You could get a blah one back in SIN for an even higher price. Totally not worth it.

No wonder girls always come to Bangkok to get their triumph fix. Triumphs back home can be a startling 50 bucks.. Over here, its about 300 baht which works out to be under 20 actually.
Plus some designs are totally exclusive, like the halter style. :)

Well, for a start its been raining since I got here. So unlike the scorching weather typical of Bangkok. I wonder why.. this renders my sunscreen redundant.

In 2 days I'm gonna have time for stuffs of my own..(they'll both be in school) cos I have been playing Big Sis & enjoying it.. Bringing my cousin to Mac's, buying them ice cream, playing arcade games, reading & colouring before bedtime.. the list is endless.

Its a nice place at my uncle's.. Nice & spacious and always filled with laughter; thanks to the exuberant lilttle one. She's always twirling and dancing, laughing and giggling.
I find it so amusing that she's always blabbering; none of it I could understand.. but its like so adorable I want to pick her up and smother her with my kisses lol!

Enough of mindless ramblings :)

Excited!

Well I'm writing again & I'm so excited about tomorrow!!!

I actually have tonnes to do.. like making sure I have packed all I need for my 10 day vacation,

send out a few mails before I leave, bathe my dogs, made sure no outstanding cc bills left unpaid..

When I reach BKK I'm going to:

- spend quality time with my ridiculously adorable lil cousins
- pick up a few thai phrases
- learn to cook tom yam soup
- Shop for cheap and nice lingerie & clothes & accessories (what else!)
- Shop for bestie's stuffs
-Get snacks for pple back home
-Play babysitter to my lil cousins;paint, draw, read, whatever..
- Meet Kelly on a weekend to chinatown
- Go Chatuchak
-Apply lots & lots of sunscreen
-Exercise
-Plan my career move
- Think positive & be positive
-Enjoy cheap massage (muahaha)
-Be refreshed & recharged
- Take lotsa pictures
- Update blog with interesting pics & events

Its gonna be hard not being able to see you smile; but thinking of you brings a smile to my face. :)

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