To the friend I somehow confide the most with; got Shu Qi ok, I know u like.

di yi ge qing chen

Leehom 王力宏 - Kiss Goodbye

Leehom 王力宏 - Kiss Goodbye

I'm always watching this becos my heart simply melts/evaporates/ goes all tingly at the short piano rendition from 2.56 onwards..

I would die a happy girl if I could see him play like that, in person. *faints*

So talented & suave. Sigh.

Shoes.

I keep bumping into people I haven't met in a long time. :) Time to rekindle friendships.

Just the other day, I came across a familiar face, enroute to catching SATC for the second time. The conversation went like this after the 'how have you been' had been said..

Being an avid SATC fan and a shoe junkie, she was gushing about how fantastic the outfits for the set was. the shoes especially.

Me: The only shoes that I wanna be in are Charlotte's. But God keep sending me Carrie's men.

R: Cos u really just Carrie what, hopeless romantic..Keep ignoring all the Aidans, no wonder nice guys really finish last.

Me: .... Aidan who?.. ( I haven't watched the series at all)

It is not that nice guys are taken for granted, but rather the lack of chemistry (or isit feel-good chemicals) are simply lacking. (for me)

I took this quiz in Facebook which said I love with "eyes closed & heart open" , thus I'm a "crazy, unconditional lover" I guess in my case, when the heart is hooked, all reason goes right out the window. This is who I really am and I don't think that's gonna change anytime soon.

I read this somewhere & it got stuck in my head :

" If you choose to listen to your heart wholly & ignore the warning signs in your potential mates, all you are going to end up with are sweat & tears."

Whichever theory u subscribe to, self-love is really important. We need to love ourselves in order to be happy. When we are happy, the world and even the most annoying person can seem downright adorable. The smiles are genuine & people feel it & respond positively. It is a lovely feeling & I'm getting there :)

Likewise, if you heart is guarded and wary, its akin to holding a shield in one hand & a spear in another. You question honest intentions and is ready to strike at the slightest provocation. Not pretty.

Someone once told me, its a shame to settle with someone just because u can live with them, & not because it would kill u inside to be apart. Sometimes feelings can be transient, and it could be wise to be level-headed. (the pros and cons list)

But. Many things in life are mediocre. Love really shouldn't be one of them.

I'll choose intense gazes to lukewarm embraces anytime. Kisses no less than passionate and riveting, it leaves you reeling & quite breathless.

Seriously, without passion where would one be? That glint in the eye & the zest for life would be quite absent, doncha think?

Digressing, I love my job! It's nice to not have to dread waking up in the early mornings & going thru the motions till the clock strikes 6.
There's just so much creative ideas and postive energy and I'm looking forward to the challenges & surprises each day brings!

Beautiful Song

我想找个答案

如果爱被出卖

到最後 非卖品有什麽剩下?

太好强?又太傻?受了伤?当赠品留下

包装的坚强

笑的那麽自然

悲伤也放进厨窗..

爱没有答案再倔强?再不放?到最後?被看穿?一个人逞强

说不恨是骗人我不再隐瞒爱的伤痕

不舍转过身不必回头地承认

非卖品是爱最美的灵魂..

the language of the broken hearted

At times I wonder how..even as you have great company, flowing conversation, merry laughter, countless activities in your life..that hollow feeling just doesn't seem to go away.

This hollow feeling always creeps in at the most unsuspecting hour, threatening to overwhelm me in a way so terrifying I morph into someone I dun remotely know,even for awhile.

It feels surreal and so foreign I have no words to describe it. I have felt stronger even thru hours of jetlag, being in a foreign land, sick and wide awake, ravenous and misunderstood.

I have had my heart..

lovingly cradled..brutally trampled, hopelessly squashed, painstakingly mended, & am honestly drained.

I would give anything for it to come back to me in a pristine state. If only.

I seriously wonder: if we are all part of something which makes us whole, does it mean we will become whole & complete when we have found our other halves?

And how do God decide who finds theirs when they turn round the corner.. and who goes thru life searching, breaking hearts and who never even got the chance to?

Life isn't fair and will never be. I can only hope its all worth it.

A warm, open, loving heart given unreservedly does not ensure it will be treasured, lovingly handled or treated with integrity. That I have learnt.

"Spiteful words can hurt your feelings but silence breaks your heart..."What's a girl like me to do?